"Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought."
Today is CD29, MLK, a beautiful drizzle on a Monday in Arizona.
I got the call last week from my Dr. that the clomid was not effective at 50mg., and my blood indicated i had not ovulated. After that day, I stopped charting my BBT for the rest of this cycle. Let me tell you what charting BBT does to me. It wakes me up at 5:30am every morning and sets the tone. It is my first thought of the day. I lay with the thermometer in my mouth for a whole minute, with nothing to think of, except, "I hope there is a dip today," or,"I hope it stays elevated today." Then I go back to sleep until 6. My whole day has my BBT as a backdrop. "How are you this morning?" "Great! I'm 96.9 today, thank you". Yes, I am completely aware this makes me sound like a psychopath.
So, day 29 is here. I should be expecting my period. Just waiting patiently, so I can take 100mg of clomid cd5-9. Except I am terrible at waiting without thinking too hard. There is actually a crazy person inside of me who is tempted to take a pregnancy test, just in case. Crazier things have happened, right? Around my parts, that's a loaded question.
I won't keep you too long, but thanks for listening, and if you understand - thanks for that too.
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